Yoga Journey Journal

I remember growing up dreaming about my future as an adult, which I’m sure most of you did as well. Remember how glamorous it seemed? Staying up all night, being able to eat McDonalds for breakfast, lunch, and dinner, going wherever you wanted, whenever you wanted. There was nothing or no one that could stop you, after all you would be an adult. According to Merriam-Webster.com the definition of an adult is: fully developed and mature: grown-up. Well, I can tell you, I became “fully developed” at the age of 13, but I don’t think that’s what they are talking about. So what exactly are they talking about, because as I sit here 2 days shy of my 29th Birthday, I can tell you I feel far from fully developed and/or mature. I feel more confused now at 29 years old then I did at the age of 10. And unfortunately, I have learned that as an “adult”, I don’t want to stay up all night, b/c I have to work in the morning, I don’t want to eat McDonalds b/c it makes me feel like shit, and I can only go where I want after 6pm Mon-Fri. and on the weekends. But where is it that I even want to go? I have spent the last 7 years as an adult wondering where that was. I wondered from Orlando to Atlanta, to Ft. Lauderdale, out to Hollywood, and finally residing in Santa Monica, CA. Well, I can tell you one thing, I finally figured out where I want to live. I guess that’s something to be happy about. Maybe I’m thinking too much and not living enough. Why if we can live to be 100 years old do we need to know at 23 what we want to do professionally for the next 40 years? And why do we feel if we don’t know then something is wrong with us? And why do I feel like Sarah Jessica Parker in Sex and the City right now?

As my 29th Birthday is fast approaching I decided to make some changes. For the first time in my life, I wanted to make goals for myself. I mean real long term goals. I decided that I wanted to become a yoga teacher. I just rolled my own eyes while typing that. But nonetheless, I am on my way. This Friday I will begin the YogaWorks 200 Hour Teacher Training. This blog is to document the highs and the lows of my journey. Have I finally found my calling? Will this be everything I dreamed it to be and more? Who knows? But what I do know is that I finally feel a little closer to becoming an adult.